Okay so it’s like 2:51am, and Matt is fucked up. And I am bvarely sober enugh to type. w3rd. Okay, and teh eproblem is that Tore will not get fucked up. Why is taihat tore will not drink.m. LOLS Matt just said “see how much we hate yoU!? we’ve establsihed a sort of microsodcoms here!” WOO and something about shawn. But I do not know, but I talked ot mark, and it was good. and he works at mailboxes etc. And that is suck. .. hmm …. zoobie … dunno … scabbard? wtf? Alicia and two other people are heare, and I think they’re not having a good time. oh wlel. Sucks to be them. LOLS. Why ist here an S. I do not know. DEAD ASS says Matt. He’s really funy wehn it comes to pounding on tore verbally. LOL. he remembers the good times. ??? Okay, right … so … almost 3am or whatever, and I’m thinkin ‘dayam, need some luviN’ … so … will pureuse that some time soon. I think tore neds some too. “Trying to provide fo you, but you justwa n ma suck. you just keep sucking.” LOLS, build a beter life. matt is hilarious. w3rd, bvurnz. okay, away, and more everclera + rasperbby lemondae. [b]Update – 10;15p 10/19[/b] – Okay, so between Burnz and I, a 375ml (12.5) bottle of 190 proof everclear is empty. Doing that math, that’s about 2.4 shots per oz of everclear. Which adds up to right around 30 shots of hard alcohol in one night. Talk about a good time — wOoOOooo!

Man, the drama train has hit the house. We’ve got some serious problems that have nothing to do with us besides what some other whiney-nosed people think, so I’m going to run through them and expose everyone’s little ninny opinions, which are obviously very wrong, because they are not mine. heh. Alrighty, the first one is about this Amanda / Alicia / Scum guys issue. Amanda and Alicia were really nice girls, and house friends to boot. Then they got their own place, and started hanging out with these two guys, Brett and Brian. I think those are their names. Anyways, so these guys are scummy, and I don’t like them. They put me ill at ease, and as one of our friends put it, “I wouldn’t hang out with them on my own time.” So they suck, and the girls they are no longer the quality people they were. Apparently Brett caught wind that I don’t like his punk ass, and wants to fight or whatever. Well, my opinion: I don’t want her over here anymore until she cleans up her act (my opinion only, not the house one). And to the Brett guy, fuck you. If you want to come over and front, then come over and put your dukes up, cuz my 9 milli is ready to go. Bitches. The other issue is [b]C[/b]harles. Poor [b]C[/b]harles. Goddamn, I thought I had talked some sense into him, but apparently that is not the case. He was nailing some chick named Rachel (bad idea #1), and Ray, computer guy at Vanion (the dying company), who is [b]C[/b]harles’s roommate, was also doin’ time with her (bad idea #2). Well, that made things a little complicated, especially for their pea-brains. They decided to kick Rachel out (Good Idea #1). Well, since she has a shitty job and no other friends, she couldn’t move out as soon as she thought she could, but apparently has pulled together the resources to do it … if she can get a roommate. Enter [b]C[/b]harles. Guy decides that he’s going to follow the pussy (bad idea #3), and move in with Rachel in some apartment (bad idea #4). Well, I berated him on AIM for being such a dumb fuck … we all know that as soon as the tang dries up, they are going to want to split, and they’ll be on the lease and stuck and hate each other and blah blah blah. Count it, four bad ideas, only one good one. That is bad odds in my book. What a dumbshit. Gotta watch out for number one. I can’t believe that people don’t think this shit out. Regarding the Amanda / Alicia thing, we had a house discussion on whether or not, as a house, we should limit who can and cannot come over … we decided that we would make an individual decision, so as not to limit the rights and abilities of any of the housemates (of course it’s a good idea, it was mine ;-)). In the midst of it, this came out: rand0m: there is no way I’d hit that I never thought the words would be spoken, but hey, everybody’s got to draw the line sometime. [b]Update – 1:00am[/b] … Decided I’d list some of the queries that hit search engines that directed people here … [L=http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&q=atlas+shrugged+bullshit]Google – atlas shrugged bullshit[/L] – #1 [L=http://search.yahoo.com/search?p=hate+monolouges&b=21&hc=0&hs=1&xargs=0]Yahoo – hate monolouges[/L] – #34 [L=http://www.google.com/search?q=CISSP+Review+Suck&hl=en&lr=&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8]Google – CISSP Review Suck[/L] – #9 [L=http://search.yahoo.com/search?p=+workin+how+to+make+catapults]Yahoo – workin how to make catapults[/L] – #1

I’m home. Yippy. Nobody has bought any food, and I am hungry. Why am I not surprised. *sigh*

Welp, I’m posting from Utah again. I went and popped the password from the public use computer, found the analog jack in my room and dialed up. Hoowaa my tech skills. This post brought to you by Best Western and Sisna.com! Things are going pretty well here. I didn’t really give this trip any thought, unlike any of my previous trips. I think that because I didn’t taint it prior to actually leaving, this trip is going better than normal. I spent 10 1/2 hours in the car, driving to UT with my dad, and holy cow that great. My dad is an amazing guy — everybody in the family likes him, and I can see why. Lots of people call me Robert. That’s a little annoying, but handleable. I really don’t have much to say, just a general update from Utah … Oh yea, I’m here because my grandmother turned 70 today, and we’re having a great big family get together to celebrate. I figured that since I have the opportunity to whore out their internet connection on the free, I might as well post. I’m still alive, still kickin … anything happening next week? [b]Update – 12:13a – 10/13/02 – [/b] Yep, another day here in Utah. I have decided that I am not moving, but that I will not live in Colorado Springs for the rest of my life. Spoke to Janelle, and determined that that town has too much baggage and history to live in forever. I don’t want to be the guy that grows up and does nothing with his life. *oof* Utah has *tons* of hot girls. And I know I [L=http://rand0m.org/viewcomments.php?NewsID=242]already posted about this[/L] once, but they’re all fucking married! They are all hella fine, and mostly intelligent, and 60% of them are blonde and wearing FMBs. It’s nuts. At least the coffee here is like Colorado coffee, and that’s mysteriously satisfying. I need some lovin. Either some good make out time, some serious mackin time, or just bed rockin sex. I need something, because I feel like a pear withering on the vine. I pick a pear because it is my favorite fruit. Right, so I am going to pursue this as soon as I get back. Cheers! [b]Update – 7:35a – 10/14/02 – [/b] Welp, it’s a hair after 7:30 am, and we’re heading over to my Oma’s house for some breakfast, then my dad and I are heading back to the springs. Looking to be back at 9pm at the latest. Have a good columbus day, you racist native-american hating, disease bringing european pig-dogs!

First off, I’d like to say that Everclear + OJ = quick drunk. Pretty nice … it’s like $5 for a bottle and will get me blasted 4-5 times. Now *that* is good drinkin. I am leaving for Utah sometime tomorrow after 3pm. I’ll be there until Monday (columbus day) night. So I won’t be around. Not like any of you shmucks ever talk to me anyways. Email and phone will still both work — phone is better, because I doubt I’ll have much in the way of internet access. I haven’t updated in forever. I don’t really know why … probably lack of inspiration. So the other day over at Pikes Perk, I’m in line, and this girl strikes up a conversation with me, and we chat, and I get her number. Cool beans. So I wait three days, get super busy at work, and call her on day #4 and leave a message, no return phone call. (ego deflates here). Oh well. Work is nice. I kind of rubbed some people wrong inadvertently, which is not good, and hopefully won’t catch any heat. The absolute worst is that I have to play the little political game to get anything done, because the count of people who tell me what to do just got bigger. Fortunately, I think I have people who are willing to bat for me. Hope it lasts, because I’m sure I’ll ram my foot through my mouth 10 or 12 more times before this is all through with. I realized today that I am not a networking god. Put me in front of win2k and I feel like I know what I’m doing … tell me to specify what kind of cisco router should be used for 3 T1s and a DS3, and I will look at you with a blank face. I know a *lot* about ethernet and T1s, but I have no experience with anything bigger, and it really limits my potential in many, many ways. Honestly, in retrospect, my actual network/sysadmin progress has stagnated in the past 5-6 months — once everything was working correctly, there is little need (due to no bandwidth growth ) to progress technically. Back to the books, I guess. School is going okay. I finished my math class, business is pretty close to being finished, econ is maybe 3/4s and english is a hair past 1/2 way. I’m ahead of the normal school schedule, but behind my planned schedule considerably. Did I mention that everclear is awesome? It is. wOoo, surprised I can type.

man. So much stuff not going on. I’ll start with work. Work is crazy. Man … meetings all the time, strategies, client lunches, client dinners, making plans, prepping for certain things. I’m already tired of all the squabbling that is going on as everyone henpecks for position in the new power ladder. I mean, sure, it’s fun to try and secure a place and make sure that all my bases are covered, but I’m really, really getting worn out with all the power plays. I’d much rather get the work done and then go about getting more work to do. I am suddenly dissatisfied, again, with the financial situation. I’m fucking broke, and it sucks. Why am I broke? Not due to mismanaging the finances, but to the serious lack of inflowing cash. Work is great. I won’t quit my job because it’d be damn near impossible to get another one. I guess I’ll just shut my trap and hunker down. On the personal side of things. Nothing is going on. I haven’t seen anyone, including the roommates. My general irritation of theweberhouse is evident to me, if not everyone else. The weekend has been really, really low key. The highlight? I filled my waterbed to the brim, so it’s nice and firm … and I did 6 loads of laundry. I have lots of clean clothes, and a nice, warm, comfy bed. And a PS2. Those are the things I have to look forward to every day. Isn’t that just sad? Sheesh … I’ve really slid. In every way. I’m very reticent, I’m always tired, I just want to relax when I get home … but then I get down, because hanging out at the house gets old really, really quick when there is nobody home. I read. I play on the PS2. I hang out online. I read some more. I do some work. But I never really *do* anything. it sucks. Been having some heavy duty internal thinking/issues too. Lots. Too many. It’s what invariably happens when I don’t have enough to do. I start thinking about things, my life, my job, my future. Where I’ve been, where I’m going. Always gets me down. I haven’t written in my journal in forever. lack of motivation. I think I’ll get a second job — not just for the very-handy money, but for the decrease in time I’ll have to get down on myself. [b]Update[/b] – got into a weak willed conversation with Laura today about Rudy Giuliani … thought I’d post some good links regarding him and leadership in general. [L=http://www.nydailynews.com/news/story/22559p-21397c.html]http://www.nydailynews.com/news/story/22559p-21397c.html[/L] [L=http://www.openair.org/alerts/artist/nyhitl2.html]http://www.openair.org/alerts/artist/nyhitl2.html[/L] [L=http://www.leighthompson.com/media/psychology_of_leadership.htm]http://www.leighthompson.com/media/psychology_of_leadership.htm[/L] [b]Update 9/30/02[/b] @ 5:29pm – The new Lord of the Rings – The Twin Towers trailer is out (Quicktime format) Linkified to a rand0m.org download, below: [L=http://rand0m.org/temp/LotR-TTT.mov]http://rand0m.org/temp/LotR-TTT.mov[/L]

Today there was a press release in the Gazette talking about my company being bought by another company … yahoo links follow: [L=http://biz.yahoo.com/djus/020924/1050000468_1.html]USURF Amer Signs Letter To Buy High Plains Internet[/L] [L=http://biz.yahoo.com/prnews/020924/latu067_1.html]USURF America Signs Letter of Intent to Acquire High Plains Internet[/L] Maybe I’ll get a bigger paycheck. *crosses fingers* In other news, I woke up sick.That really, really pisses me off. I *HATE* being sick … it’s right up there with how much I hate wind. So, somebody got me sick, because I do not randomly get sick. I think it was either Melissa or Tony. I’m going to blame Tony, simply because he is an easy target. Tony, why did you get me sick? *sigh* I took like 500x my daily alotment of vitamin C in hopes of my sickness not developing into full-blown illness. At least he’s going to bring home some NyQuil. mmmmmm … *miserable feelings here* I think that when I finally get of my truck, or if I keep it, or whatever, I’ll get an early 90s Jeep Cherokee. Not one of the Grand Cherokees, nor the Cherokee Wagon, but the [L=http://rand0m.org/image.php?name=93cherokee&type=jpg]Cherokee Sport or Cherokee Country[/L]. I don’t know why, but I like them. Especially with 31″ tires and a mild suspension lift. Yummy. [b]Update[/b] – It’s 12:09pm, and it is the first time I have taken an afternoon off from a day I am supposed to work in like 8 months. The reason for me not attending to my oh-so-rigorous duties? I’m sick. All out sick, I mean: headache, blurry vision, fever, sore throat, hurting mouth, sore all over. I’m in bad shape, and I am at home. *sigh*

So Burnz is over here thursday night till like 5am, so I’m completely wasted all day Friday. blech, that sucked. And now it’s saturday, and I slept for a good 9 hours. Until Tony’s goddamn alarm went off. Fucker leaves town for the evening and leaves that shit on, so it starts ringing at like 7:30am. I was pretty pissed, cuz then I had to go and shut that shit off. *sigh* Funny link of the day: [L=http://www.mintyass.com]mintyass.com[/L] Funny Quote otDay: [i][b]Female Hormones in Beer[/b] – Yesterday, scientists for Health Canada suggested that men should take a look at their beer consumption, considering the results of a recent analysis that revealed the presence of female hormones in beer. The theory is that drinking beer makes men turn into women. To test the finding, 100 men were fed 6 pints of beer each. It was then observed that 100% of the men gained weight, talked excessively without making sense, became overly emotional, couldn’t drive, failed to think rationally, argued over nothing and refused to apologize when wrong. No further testing is planned.[/i] Hehehe. Also, heavy, heavy news at the house … never woulda thought. Oh well. UPDATE AT 2:52AM w0o … okay, so I’m over at Frank’s house, celebrating his 26th … I’m so trashed hahahhah, I’m sitting in James lap, typijng this shit up wondering “where th eufck is frank!?” he’s supposed to be here, but isntead, we’re hitting up the Fat Tire keg, wondering “when are we going to get laid!” hahahhaa rock the fucking hizouse. And no, I am not talking about james. I just happen to be right here newar the compute.r w0oow wee Okay, 4:02 am, and I am still fcukedc up … rock the fucking ohsue! frank rocks! Computer says 5:10am. My apologies if this wanders. I am very drunk and very out of it, and I have this to say: I walked home with no shoes on — I had them in my hand, but did not put them on. The rocks on the way home hurt. My truck and the keg will need to be pickedup tomorrow *NOTE SO SELF* … Also, note to self: do not party with Tony; he is out of control. Honestly: several questions of “who the fuck is that guy” … “a little too eager” … “goddamn man, you have a girlfriend, calm down” … again, out of control. Wants to fight, obviously, is very confronational, wants to get into a brawl. Hence, out of control tony … will try not to engage this sort of activity with him again. He is very, very drunk, and very very stupid and aggressive. here I am, way smashed out of my completely ready to just fall over infornt o the tcomputer, and all I can think is “no shoes, ow” .. “carrie” … “out of *control; do not repeat” … worst high-session yet. reason: tony is out of control. 5:22am – receive call from disco that tony is out of control, and will not come home. screaminga nd yelling by otny on the phone. going to go retreive tony. thank you james. 5:40am — just got back in. Met James at PHS aux pariking lot, with a screaming, violent tony. Walked up, began to help james carry tony home. Tony punches me in the face, I deck him, straight up, then kick him in the stomach. Tony settles down a bit, james manhandles him to weberstreet. Tony gets violent, I punch him again and push him to the ground. He gets up, we stagger him home to the front room couch. He seems to be already asleep, in less than 3 minutes. I post, trying to keep some sort of history for my posterity and my own future edification.I hope this never, ever happens again. 5:52am – thank you james. [b]Update[/b] – 11:30am – Awake now, after not enough sleep, because for the second day in a row Tony’s GODDAMN ALARM IS STILL ON. GaAaaAAAaaaaAaAaah. Right, so not enough sleep, and I wake up to people and the alarm. Apparently we got home after everybody else got back from Ft.Collins (4am?) … my apologies if we woke you up! sOo, I survived, sans a truck and a keg — which are at Frank’s house. I am very hungover this morning, though … almost feels like I’m still drunk, except that I have a splitting headache. Even though things got fucked up, I still had a great time last night … Going to Hooters for lunch with Paulie in a bit. w3rd.

I never considered it before, but recently, it seems like the most stimulating intellectual conversations come at times later than 2am. Maybe it’s that Burnz and I are in the same boat in a lot of ways, or that we’re just bitter people sharing camaraderie, but I cannot help finding myself thoroughly enjoying early AM discussions. Good times; hard on the sleep cycle. Couple of personal revelations made during the last few days, mostly regarding my views on the world and just how fucked up and insecure I really am … sadly, I’d bet that with only a small bit of coaxing, the wildly perceptive audience here would be able to psychoanalyze me to a T. Ha! Okay, how I got to the point where I would write that sentence, I do not know. I think it has to do with the fact that I’m a control-mongering, woman-dominating dickhead who is wildly spiteful about the many opportunities, and consequently the untold wasted ones, that others are afforded that I am not. Grrr. In other news, Wendy’s Nuggets are the shit. I went and got 6 packs of these things, and got 2 more free packs of nuggets, a free BlockBuster rental, a free frost, a free upsize and a free 20oz soda. NUGZ, WOOO!

But this weekend was crazy. Friday night, I have no idea what happened. I think I worked late, and then … I went home? I don’t know :-/ … moving on … Saturday! Saturday was good. Wait, I think I got drunk on Friday. I wish I knew. Hmmm … Okay, so Saturday. I didn’t do much this day either, except decide that I was going to buy a DVD player because Housematt’s Samsung … well, it’s mostly just because I don’t have one of my own. So we go to Best Buy to buy a DVD player, and then 3 hours later, we come home in Paulie’s Jeep with a Playstation 2 and a bunch of extra niceties. w0ot w0ot! The GTA3 action started shortly, followed up by some play on Burnz’ “Twisted Metal Black,” which is a shweet car-blowing-up-and-chasing-with-missiles-and-guns game. It was mucho fun. Then Saturday night rolled around. It was a very long night, but one that I’m glad that I partook of. It’s all about the follow through … thanks matt 🙂 And then it was Sunday. Went over to Waffle House aka southern-trucker-in-a-can at like 2pm and ate breakfast. yummmy. Then … I don’t know. All I know is that I was very tired. But yea, Sunday was good. I think. Not too sure on that one. And then came Monday. It was a normal day, just like any other, except that I went to Best Buy and bought NHL 2002. That is probably one of the most gratifying things I have done recently. No, it was the playing of NHL 2002 that made things great. From 9pm until 6am, that game ruled my life. I am venturing to say that it is the best PS/2 game I have played to date … it has replay value out the roof, varying levels of everything, adjustable everything, does dolby digital dts, it is amazing. I am tired from very little sleep, but it is the shit.