general update on the life of me

man. So much stuff not going on. I’ll start with work. Work is crazy. Man … meetings all the time, strategies, client lunches, client dinners, making plans, prepping for certain things. I’m already tired of all the squabbling that is going on as everyone henpecks for position in the new power ladder. I mean, sure, it’s fun to try and secure a place and make sure that all my bases are covered, but I’m really, really getting worn out with all the power plays. I’d much rather get the work done and then go about getting more work to do. I am suddenly dissatisfied, again, with the financial situation. I’m fucking broke, and it sucks. Why am I broke? Not due to mismanaging the finances, but to the serious lack of inflowing cash. Work is great. I won’t quit my job because it’d be damn near impossible to get another one. I guess I’ll just shut my trap and hunker down. On the personal side of things. Nothing is going on. I haven’t seen anyone, including the roommates. My general irritation of theweberhouse is evident to me, if not everyone else. The weekend has been really, really low key. The highlight? I filled my waterbed to the brim, so it’s nice and firm … and I did 6 loads of laundry. I have lots of clean clothes, and a nice, warm, comfy bed. And a PS2. Those are the things I have to look forward to every day. Isn’t that just sad? Sheesh … I’ve really slid. In every way. I’m very reticent, I’m always tired, I just want to relax when I get home … but then I get down, because hanging out at the house gets old really, really quick when there is nobody home. I read. I play on the PS2. I hang out online. I read some more. I do some work. But I never really *do* anything. it sucks. Been having some heavy duty internal thinking/issues too. Lots. Too many. It’s what invariably happens when I don’t have enough to do. I start thinking about things, my life, my job, my future. Where I’ve been, where I’m going. Always gets me down. I haven’t written in my journal in forever. lack of motivation. I think I’ll get a second job — not just for the very-handy money, but for the decrease in time I’ll have to get down on myself. [b]Update[/b] – got into a weak willed conversation with Laura today about Rudy Giuliani … thought I’d post some good links regarding him and leadership in general. [L=][/L] [L=][/L] [L=][/L] [b]Update 9/30/02[/b] @ 5:29pm – The new Lord of the Rings – The Twin Towers trailer is out (Quicktime format) Linkified to a download, below: [L=][/L]

2002-09-30 00:21:23 – pinky
yes, it was weak willed because we’ll never agree because you’re a bleeding heart conservative…lol. also, i just think he’s a schmuck. i wish i knew more jewish terminology. i bet tore can help me out on that one. anyway, if anyone would like to comment, randal and i were discussing rudy giuliani and i feel he is not a "great leader" like randal does (hence the quote marks). give your $.02.
2002-09-30 00:24:13 – Siaokh
What about getting your Edumication?! Punch. -Tim
2002-09-30 03:30:25 – pinky
i prefer drinking my alcamahol out of my saxamaphone.
2002-09-30 08:51:13 – rand0m
I call it weak willed, because when asked why he is not a good leader, I received no answer. When I asked you why he *is* a good leader, I received no answer. When I asked for ‘what makes a good leader’, you said that it varies from person to person and that there are no common traits (very untrue). Overall, I consider the serious lack of fact-powered response rather pedestrian. Apparently Laura is more interested in his female relations than his policy. Finally, "bleeding heart" is *NOT* a term that is used to describe us icey, made-of-iron, cold hearted conservatives. It’s used 99.99% of the time to describe the very people-oriented social position of a political figure, e.g. supporting welfare, increasing social security, or reducing criminal penalties. Even google backs me on it: "bleeding heart conservative" – 193 hits "bleeding heart liberal" 5,540.
2002-09-30 10:30:36 – Burnz
Yeah, the term for randal is "Fuzzy Republicanated Gelatin Beast". And I think that Guliani was a good leader for the mire of filth and sin that was New York City before he came along. Although I don’t agree with his policy, it is a personal disagreement rather than a lack of acknowledgement of his capacity. He did get a little crazy in the last years with his crusade to purge the ills from the formerly two-towered city. Just got blood taken, now I need to know how I can get around Anibuse (sic).
2002-09-30 10:48:11 – pinky
okay, i was joking about the bleeding heart thing because i was kidding. i know that’s used to describe liberals (very innacurately, nonetheless, but still). secondly, what exactly is the point of me trying to argue with you about someone who you didn’t even know existed until sept. 11, 2001. i’m sure you’ve had adeuqate time to measure how effective giuliani was because you knew things about him before he was man of the year on the cover of people. also, he’s not there anymore, he’s done. he did singlehandedly endorse a fucking asshole to succeed him, though, and because he’s such a "great leader," even though everyone was ready to get rid of him before sept. 11, schmucky corporate bastard won. ah well.
2002-09-30 11:49:37 – Siaokh
Wow… Dischord on… NEWSFLASH *Pinkie gets her ass handed to her.* In other news Nova attempts to be a hardcore player, and gets played. And with the weather we have Tony…. Is it raining out there? -Tim
2002-09-30 11:56:06 – tony
Dude, I got snowed on and hail out on old stage road saturday afternoon. First time I’ve seen snow this season. About former nyc mayor, he’s not jewish, he’s italian. Secondly, a great leader is someone who makes the RIGHT crucial decisions when a city needs the RIGHT crucial decisions made. Some people may not have liked him, but if nothing else, rudy whipped crime in nyc. Yeah, I disagree with putting all the cameras in the public parks. Yeah, I think some of his handling of police misconduct could have been better. Other than that, ask new yorkers what their perception is of nyc now instead of 5 or 6 years ago. Do you think ex president clinton would have moved offices to harlem without the changes giuliani made?
2002-09-30 11:57:48 – tony
As for free time and getting bored and crap, there are tons of outdoors activities to do. The cheapest easiest one is go hiking on the hundreds of trails around colorado springs. A good one I was biking at over the weekend is stratton open spaces off of cheyenne road. Weather is still nice.
2002-09-30 12:06:09 – Burnz
And if hiking isn’t quite enough excersize for you, you could always grease tony up and play catch the hobbit.
2002-09-30 17:51:25 – Master Ha-reed
Speaking of Hobbits, what the fuck is Peter Jackson thinking giving away one of the biggest secrets in the Two Towers in a fucking preview (Gandalf coming back)??? Interesting use of the Requiem for a Dream/Kronos Quartet Soundtrack though On top of what everyone is saying, Giuliani handled the September 11 attacks and resulting fallout quite well – which is one of the components of a good leader, and also the reason that fewer people wanted to oust him afterwards, and why he’ll go down in history as an overall "good" mayor.
2002-09-30 18:42:04 – Disco Nova
How did I get dragged into this? I refuse to participate in yet another slapfight.
2002-09-30 19:47:46 – rand0m
Sorry man, if you reply, you’re already in on it. hehe. That’s how we sucker you into giving us your soul. 😀
2002-09-30 22:59:04 – Siaokh
$2, Drive through please.
2002-10-01 12:22:17 – Netheus
A leader is someone who can step up and make a fucking decision. Many of our leaders today don’t make decisions at all, they just do fuck all. Giulianni had a fucked up city, with a huge crime rate and a reputation for minorities takinf it up the ass. Now I can’t say if he did good or bad, but he did something, which makes him a leader. Del tha Funky Homosapien knows dis shit, yo. I am still sick… feel better, but still sick… And Randal- I go to work, then school, then home, fark, pet cat, sit next to troy, go to bed (recently at 9:30), get up at 7, take a shower, pet cat, feed cat, clean cat’s box, fark, go to work, go to school…
2002-10-01 21:26:27 – tony
Was surfing this website and saw this really cool piece to quote: "They wanted to go for the brass ring and really live the good life… What they don’t seem to get is that the key to living the good life is to avoid that brass ring like the fucking plague"
2002-10-02 02:22:07 – captnspectacular
In that LOTR trailer, the second half has the score from ‘requiem for a dream’ playing. I just found that interesting.
2002-10-02 17:47:35 – nurseboy
Dude! If you are so bored, give me a holler…
2002-10-02 18:07:17 – fourdegrees
re: randal feeling down lately: we love you, randal. 😀 …would comment about guliani, but all i heard about the situation was how great everyone thought he handled the fallout of 9/11…and we all know how trustworthy the |/|@55 |/|3D1@ are… incidently, has anyone ever clicked on the –Comment Posting Guide– link? "1. rand0m can do whatever he wants, so fuck you." …w3rd
2002-10-02 22:38:34 – Netheus
Queen of the Damned DVD rocks. Lots of cool extras, most of it NOT Aaliyah. Brotherhood of the Wolf (Le pacte de lupes) great fucking movie. DVD defaults to the English dubbing, not tooo many extras, but still good. Panic Room- shitty DVD, no extras. To Hitchcock. Don’t like it, looking to sell it. Monsters, Inc.- cute movie, lots of extras by pixar. Neat. Downloading Interview with the vampire off the net- sucks… I grow impatient. Kitty- cute and black, but I figured out where she got the white stripes. She is at least 1/2 skunk. Seriously, one of her farts woke me up last night, thought I was gonna puke. Ugh. Gandalf- everybody has read the fucking books, they knew it was going to happen, so wtf?!?!?!? Still sick… damnit…
2002-10-02 23:09:31 – Burnz
Brotherhood of the wolf: Not good movie. Incestual rape, taxidermy, a native american. Revolting.
2002-10-02 23:46:36 – Siaokh
Sounds like a party to me!!! *LOUD WHOOPING YOKEL YELL* -Tim Punch.
2002-10-03 09:05:55 – Netheus
Yes, but lots of violence. And the rape scene is short, and the fucker dies in the end anyway. As far as your yokel ass goes, it is originally in French, so…. you won’t get it.
2002-10-03 09:42:28 – Netheus
this is the world’s funniest joke, universally, according to some English folks. the article on the study is:,4057,5220974%5E1702,00.html the joke is: Two hunters are out in the woods when one of them collapses. He doesn’t seem to be breathing and his eyes are glazed. The other guy whips out his cellphone and calls the emergency services. He gasps: "My friend is dead! What can I do?" The operator says: "Calm down, I can help. First, let’s make sure he’s dead." There is a silence, then a shot is heard. Back on the phone, the guy says: "OK, now what?" I still think that our bad jokes beat this one to hell, but hey, they did the study w/o us.
2002-10-03 14:54:03 – tony
In 10 minutes I take a linear algebra test. I don’t like tests, they are too much stress.
2002-10-03 17:03:43 – tony
w00t, i aced that damn test and in other news for members of the house, i cleaned the grill and discovered the secret to cooking perfect steaks on it… mmm, cooked steak, good… EAT STEAK!!!
2002-10-07 23:38:15 – Disco Nova
2002-10-08 01:33:14 – tony
2002-10-08 11:21:18 – Netheus
feed me sushi!!!!
2002-10-08 23:43:44 – Siaokh
"Prepare to meet IRON SKILLET" lux aeterna owns all. PUNCH. -Tim