I had a pretty good weekend. Plans on friday night fell through so I did absolutely nothing. [sarcasm] That was super-great. [/sarcasm]. Saturday, however, was much better. I went out with Steve and Dave to the mall, bought Wolfenstein [sweet game, w0o!], and then went back to his place and watched a couple videos, one of which was an “In Depth Documentary” called “Startup.com”. Most people would scoff at the movie, and think that it sucked, but I enjoyed it — it was a very good introspect on the life of the e-entrepeneur. Today wasn’t as good. Oh, and I got a copy of G.Orwell’s 1984, so I’m reading that [finished Rand’s Atlas Shrugged a while ago]. Oh yea, one more thing … CU Boulder won the Big 12 conference. Go CU Woke up at god-awful 8:15am to go to church. Apparently there are people staying at my house [The Lawsons] … I don’t know for how long. Anywho, church, then food, and then another church thing at 6. I really don’t like church. Too much in one day makes me want to get violent. And now on to the three or four good things, instead of this rubbish …
The first of these things is something inspired by Janelle. Now, as we all know, I go out of my way to avoid talking about her, but this was pretty Thought Provoking. This summarizes her thinking: in this moment, why give a fuck about other people, and how your action might affect them? Well, you know, she’s got a point. Everything you do *always* affects other people, no matter how much you may not want it to. I abhore to use it, but it’s like a social responsibility, the whole looking at how you effect others thing. I hate that, too :: how can I be a selfish, pro-me-only person bent only on my own gratification when I always have to be aware of everybody else? Not a simple question to answer, and not one that I am conscious of — what I *am* conscious, of however, is what is keeping me in shangrala, and what is not.
Okay, here’s #2. What the hell is up with super-flirty girls? Man, you know, they sure are nice and everything, and they smell good, and you just want to grab onto them and man, it’s really great to have a girl like you even if she’s a complete airhead, but * Come On *. I think they think it’s some kind of sick game to see how ensnared they can get a guy. Case in point … I meet this girl today, and she’s really nice, but she’s dumb. [Note to self: that’s the first sign of doom. run away!] Sure, she was all nice, and kept doing all the typical girl-style “I like you signals” … like lots of eye contact, smiling, touching, brushing against, the whole shabang. But, of course, she’s just a super-flirt, and it all went nowhere. [irritation here].
Okay, and now to the tough parts. Sorry to be long winded, just a bit of things to say. The main crux of some stress right now is the whole web development thing. There’s a guy who wants an e.commerce site, and is ready and willing to pay $9,000 straight up for it. Problem, though, is that he keeps redoing front end designs, keeps scrutinizing the contract, keeps stalling. That’s what it seems like to me, at least. The main problem is that he wants it functional by 01/01/02. There’s a couple problems here … first off, there is almost no way to get a site up and running from scratch in less than a month. Especially when it’s December, and everyone is travelling for holidays [or in jail (gulp)]. I’m a pretty amazing guy, granted, but I just don’t think it can be done unless there is A) a lot more money, B) more people working on it or C) it is not from scratch. I’m really in a bind, because it’s almost to the point where the contract *can’t* get fulfilled on my side, mostly due to his delaying. But, both HPI and I need the money. I have big, big fines coming my way