[b]***** PARTY ALERT *****[/b] There is a party at the weberstreet house (423 N Weber) on Saturday, November 16th. Starting time is probably around 9pm. Since we are poor as church mice, this is a BYOB — we will provide a keg and some hard stuff. [b]Bring all your friends[/b], and make this one a doozay! So I had a rather nice weekend. It started off on Friday night with Steve and Ben Chapin coming by and everyone watching “Band of Brothers”, which I must say is the best movie/series/production I have seen in a looong time. I recommend it 150%. Laura was in town as well, and we went out and got coffee and chilled out. That was fun 🙂 On Saturday, things got turned up a notch. I did nothing all day, besides some laundry, and ended up going out with James over to Frank’s house, which was a pretty fun time, as usual. I don’t know why, but Frank is fun to hang out with. I found out, however, that when I’m around a lot of people I don’t know, I get pretty quiet. Weird. Anyway, Saturday night was good. Oh, and Steve got cable internet. That’s pretty sweet 🙂 Woke up on Sunday morning and played Tony in some NHL2k2. I got owned in less than 5 minutes, and stopped playing. That sucked. Highlight of Sunday was seeing Carolyn! She is here from the east coast, and we hung out at Denny’s. That was really fun 😀 I also saw Joanna there, who some of you may recall is a human goddess. That was really nice. *sigh of longing* … Today has been pretty good too — I replaced my truck’s battery (plugs and filter is next weekend), destroyed one of the battery cables (bought a new one) … and went out to lunch at Hops w/ Paulie, Manny, Matt & Danielle. That was fun too. I’ve had a pretty good weekend 🙂 One thing I’ve learned that I hate is people who sign on to AIM and instantly put up an away message. For chrissakes, if you’re going to not be there for even 2 minutes, don’t sign on! Are you trying to gather people’s IMs while you’re away? I make it a point to try and not IM away people. I hate leaving messages like that. Grr. Oh, and for some reason, I have decided to not distribute party invites via email like I normally do. I don’t know why. Just a gut feeling .. hmm …

Sorry for the lag time between posts … I’ve been really, really, really busy. This is just a summary of some of the things that have been happening as of late, and hence, will be pretty long. Settle down for the long haul, cuz it’s right here. I’m just going to go chronologically because that is easiest. This past week, I have spent tons and tons and tons of time getting nice and friendly with FreeBSD so that HPI could setup all the routing and networking for [L=http://www.everlan.net]EverLAN[/L]. That is all fine and dandy, but Wednesday was a bitch. For two reasons. The first off is that there was a shooting in my building. On the third floor of our building, there is a company called Land & Title Company. They had a lady who worked there, who was 20, and who recently broke off an engagement with some guy who was 24. Apparently she had to file a restraining order against her ex-fiance, which he violated three times. The first time, he went and visited her house. The second time, he called her on Wednesday morning, and the third time, he went to her office on the third floor. This third time was not good. He showed up, asked if she was there, and then walked to her office. The floor receptionist phoned that the guy had shown up, and the afforementioned lady started running to not be in her office when the guy showed up. Well, she was stepping out of her office when the guy pulled a .45 and blew her away. In short order he shot himself. I found out about all this because Jack and I were going to lunch and hit the lobby right as the police were entering the building. We got hauled to a back room, quickly questioned, and then escorted out of the building. As we left, we saw a SWAT van with lots of officers donning bulletproof vests and loading M16s. It was very scary, really, but I think the biggest impact on me is that there are people out there who are not safe; that somebody who you know can be driven to a point where no decision making is preceded by thought, that a person can lose every inhibition and do the unthinkable. To all of you anti-gun people: the problem is not the guns. They are just a means to an end. The problem is the derangement of a person. Very, very sad. Following that tragedy, Thursday was very, very busy. I spent most of the day tweakin firewall and routing scripts in an attempt to be ready for the conference. Unfortunately, somewhere along the way our new found BSD box started broadcasting its routes and poisoned the route tables in one of our alpha servers, consequently taking down one of our on-floor T1 customers. This proved to be a real bitch to fix, and I was at work very late fixing that. And it sucked. Friday was a busy day — went over to EverLAN and setup all the networking, which was pretty crazy. We were working with four total networks; not very complex, just very big (compared to what I work with normally). However, we got it all up and working friday night around 7pm, before the majority of people started showing up Saturday morning. Saturday proved to be rather eventful as 300 gamers started plugging in their PCs & monitors … it was pretty warm in the conference room, and power breakers started blowing like mad — once every 4-5 minutes, 60 people would blink off. Unfortunately, our servers went up and down several times, necessitating a reconfig on every occurence. That sucked. It finally settled down around 1pm or so, and things were peachy keen, and rather uneventful. Went home at 2am, then came back on saturday morning @ 8am and spent the day there again. The day was similarly unspectacular on Saturday … so Jack and I decide to call it quits at 11:30pm since everything is stable and go home. Well, about 3 minutes after I leave, I get a phone call saying the network is down. Turns out that the only computer on the network with unrestricted firewall settings decided to turn on KaZaa and utilize the entire connection by itself, leaving nothing for anybody else. I almost bitch slapped that guy, but instead resorted to yelling at him for having it on when it was expressly against the rules, and then yelling at him more for purposely defeating the firewall rules in place (against the acceptable use policy he signed). That was sucky. And then I came home. Which brings me to my next topic. I came home on Sunday morning to find a very, very, very drunk Matt Byrne at my house, a not-sober tony, shawn and melissa curled up asleep on the couch, and a very downtrodden, almost “I’ve been whipped into submission” Emily. It took very little time for me to realize that I very much dislike Matt when he is trashed. The easiest way to describe him is menacing. Tony does the same thing when he gets really trashed. Matt is much more menacing when he goes that route, though, simply because he is very big and could probably kick my ass. Thankfully, Emily decided to go home pretty quickly after I showed up, because I was in no mood for Matt’s shit and would have probably blown a fuse (remember, < 6 hours of sleep and > 16 hours of work) if he had gotten all up in my grill. I was very irritated with him the other weekend, and as much as it pains me to do it here instead of face to face, I wanted to beat his ass when I found he was completely bad mouthing me while he was over at my house drinking my alcohol. Goddamn cocknocker. So, around Matt, I will not speak of anything which may make him decide that I ramble on too much about a particular thing, like say work, or school, or other people simply because it gives him ammo. And honestly, I would rather have nothing than a negative. Went back to EverLAN at 8am this morning, and everything was up and stable. That’s basically how it was all day. We had a couple bandwidth shortages here and there, but some reweighting of dynamic bandwidth allocation queues solved those very quickly. As far as I know, most of the people were pleased that the net access was there and that it worked, although most complained that it was fast not enough, which I can fully understand. Cramming 350 people on to a wireless T1 is not good times. But it went well. The bad part is that no other HPI people ever showed up. No marketroids, no sellers, no other techs, nobody else showed up, and that really, really pissed me off. Their going to get hell tomorrow morning. The best part is that it is over, and I think that people have a generally good impression of HPI. And that is my post. Somewhere in there I spent an evening at the Perk and got all depressed about things and blah blah blah, but that is all because I suck and have a very low opinion of myself, blah blah blah. But that was my week, and it was good. I have another long, long week ahead of me, filled with meetings with the mayor and a post-op about EverLAN. And that is that. zoobay. [b]Update[/b] – due to technical difficulties, this is post 343. Tough. [b]Update – 10:55p 11/4/02[/b] – Thought I’d post some hilarious links: [L=http://pichosting.pcthike.com/brutuskend/menwomen]http://pichosting.pcthike.com/brutuskend/menwomen[/L] [L=http://www.ebaumsworld.com/media/pooch.mov]http://www.ebaumsworld.com/media/pooch.mov[/L] Oh, I turned on the webcam too. Click the above right for a pic of my shitty beard!

I’d like to give a big congrats to Laura for being elected into the student government at CU Boulder. Congrats! 🙂 And now on to rant time (thanks for the inspiration, Jared!) You know what I fucking hate? When somebody is not listed as away or idle on AIM, and I message them, and it takes like 10 minutes to get a response. God I hate that. It’s like … you know, if you’re going to be gone for a short time, at least through up a ‘bbiam’ or logoff or something equivalent to saying “I’m not here.” Man, I hate that … just pisses me off. I want to talk *now*, not in 10 minutes. I have decided that I am going to try the facial hair routine once again. I guess I am just unhappy with my face, so I have decided that I will grow out some obnoxiously short amount of facial hair, probably get bored of it in a week, then shave it off. I think I might post a pic of it. Today is day #3, and I look like a bum. At least it’s not light brown like last time … dark brown with some black in it. Looks okay for now. I’m sure that I’ll catch a lot of hell for it, so this is my preemptive screw you: [b]screw you[/b]. Intermission: [L=http://rand0m.org/image.php?name=r33t&type=gif]r33t!!~!!! w0ot!!![/L] [L=http://rand0m.org/image.php?name=tony-mag&type=gif]Tony in nature[/L] What the fuck is up with people who don’t give you the time of day? Was over at Pikes Perk today, and saw Linlee Hanson, a girl from HS, and we chatted for a few seconds, and it was good. And then Laura Berger (smallfry/cupcake) came down from upstairs and completely blew off Burnz, Tony and I. What a bitch. I don’t remember the last time that I did that, even to people that I really don’t like. Goddamn. Such disrespect. I wanted to go jump on the hood of her car and scream “hellOooOOooo!” … I tried to get Tony to do it for $1, but he wouldn’t. So we sort of sat there and sulked about the lack of recognition given to us by the oh-so-fine but irritating Laura. And that was that. I have something else damning to say, but I am witholding. I am not entirely sure why. But I do know that I’m not saying it, so screw you. Again. [b]Update – 4:32p – 10/27[/b] We have no water. Something regarding the water out back broke, and I would take care of it by calling Kurt and having them send someone to fix it, but I don’t know Kurt’s number. And the person who does, Tony, invariably will not answer / doesn’t have cell phone on him. So, no water. I bet you money that I’ll be taking a shower at work tomorrow. *GRRR* [b]Update – 11:33p – 10/27[/b] – Our water is not broken. Thank god, I was fearing I’d be a father soon. It turns out that the pipe that was spraying water everywhere is connected to the sprinkler system, which is not our problem (landlord’s). I still am giving a big GRRR to Tony for never carrying / answering his phone. And Craig makes me laugh for so many reasons. Had something else to say, forgot it.

Okay so it’s like 2:51am, and Matt is fucked up. And I am bvarely sober enugh to type. w3rd. Okay, and teh eproblem is that Tore will not get fucked up. Why is taihat tore will not drink.m. LOLS Matt just said “see how much we hate yoU!? we’ve establsihed a sort of microsodcoms here!” WOO and something about shawn. But I do not know, but I talked ot mark, and it was good. and he works at mailboxes etc. And that is suck. .. hmm …. zoobie … dunno … scabbard? wtf? Alicia and two other people are heare, and I think they’re not having a good time. oh wlel. Sucks to be them. LOLS. Why ist here an S. I do not know. DEAD ASS says Matt. He’s really funy wehn it comes to pounding on tore verbally. LOL. he remembers the good times. ??? Okay, right … so … almost 3am or whatever, and I’m thinkin ‘dayam, need some luviN’ … so … will pureuse that some time soon. I think tore neds some too. “Trying to provide fo you, but you justwa n ma suck. you just keep sucking.” LOLS, build a beter life. matt is hilarious. w3rd, bvurnz. okay, away, and more everclera + rasperbby lemondae. [b]Update – 10;15p 10/19[/b] – Okay, so between Burnz and I, a 375ml (12.5) bottle of 190 proof everclear is empty. Doing that math, that’s about 2.4 shots per oz of everclear. Which adds up to right around 30 shots of hard alcohol in one night. Talk about a good time — wOoOOooo!

Man, the drama train has hit the house. We’ve got some serious problems that have nothing to do with us besides what some other whiney-nosed people think, so I’m going to run through them and expose everyone’s little ninny opinions, which are obviously very wrong, because they are not mine. heh. Alrighty, the first one is about this Amanda / Alicia / Scum guys issue. Amanda and Alicia were really nice girls, and house friends to boot. Then they got their own place, and started hanging out with these two guys, Brett and Brian. I think those are their names. Anyways, so these guys are scummy, and I don’t like them. They put me ill at ease, and as one of our friends put it, “I wouldn’t hang out with them on my own time.” So they suck, and the girls they are no longer the quality people they were. Apparently Brett caught wind that I don’t like his punk ass, and wants to fight or whatever. Well, my opinion: I don’t want her over here anymore until she cleans up her act (my opinion only, not the house one). And to the Brett guy, fuck you. If you want to come over and front, then come over and put your dukes up, cuz my 9 milli is ready to go. Bitches. The other issue is [b]C[/b]harles. Poor [b]C[/b]harles. Goddamn, I thought I had talked some sense into him, but apparently that is not the case. He was nailing some chick named Rachel (bad idea #1), and Ray, computer guy at Vanion (the dying company), who is [b]C[/b]harles’s roommate, was also doin’ time with her (bad idea #2). Well, that made things a little complicated, especially for their pea-brains. They decided to kick Rachel out (Good Idea #1). Well, since she has a shitty job and no other friends, she couldn’t move out as soon as she thought she could, but apparently has pulled together the resources to do it … if she can get a roommate. Enter [b]C[/b]harles. Guy decides that he’s going to follow the pussy (bad idea #3), and move in with Rachel in some apartment (bad idea #4). Well, I berated him on AIM for being such a dumb fuck … we all know that as soon as the tang dries up, they are going to want to split, and they’ll be on the lease and stuck and hate each other and blah blah blah. Count it, four bad ideas, only one good one. That is bad odds in my book. What a dumbshit. Gotta watch out for number one. I can’t believe that people don’t think this shit out. Regarding the Amanda / Alicia thing, we had a house discussion on whether or not, as a house, we should limit who can and cannot come over … we decided that we would make an individual decision, so as not to limit the rights and abilities of any of the housemates (of course it’s a good idea, it was mine ;-)). In the midst of it, this came out: rand0m: there is no way I’d hit that I never thought the words would be spoken, but hey, everybody’s got to draw the line sometime. [b]Update – 1:00am[/b] … Decided I’d list some of the queries that hit search engines that directed people here … [L=http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&q=atlas+shrugged+bullshit]Google – atlas shrugged bullshit[/L] – #1 [L=http://search.yahoo.com/search?p=hate+monolouges&b=21&hc=0&hs=1&xargs=0]Yahoo – hate monolouges[/L] – #34 [L=http://www.google.com/search?q=CISSP+Review+Suck&hl=en&lr=&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8]Google – CISSP Review Suck[/L] – #9 [L=http://search.yahoo.com/search?p=+workin+how+to+make+catapults]Yahoo – workin how to make catapults[/L] – #1

I’m home. Yippy. Nobody has bought any food, and I am hungry. Why am I not surprised. *sigh*

Welp, I’m posting from Utah again. I went and popped the password from the public use computer, found the analog jack in my room and dialed up. Hoowaa my tech skills. This post brought to you by Best Western and Sisna.com! Things are going pretty well here. I didn’t really give this trip any thought, unlike any of my previous trips. I think that because I didn’t taint it prior to actually leaving, this trip is going better than normal. I spent 10 1/2 hours in the car, driving to UT with my dad, and holy cow that great. My dad is an amazing guy — everybody in the family likes him, and I can see why. Lots of people call me Robert. That’s a little annoying, but handleable. I really don’t have much to say, just a general update from Utah … Oh yea, I’m here because my grandmother turned 70 today, and we’re having a great big family get together to celebrate. I figured that since I have the opportunity to whore out their internet connection on the free, I might as well post. I’m still alive, still kickin … anything happening next week? [b]Update – 12:13a – 10/13/02 – [/b] Yep, another day here in Utah. I have decided that I am not moving, but that I will not live in Colorado Springs for the rest of my life. Spoke to Janelle, and determined that that town has too much baggage and history to live in forever. I don’t want to be the guy that grows up and does nothing with his life. *oof* Utah has *tons* of hot girls. And I know I [L=http://rand0m.org/viewcomments.php?NewsID=242]already posted about this[/L] once, but they’re all fucking married! They are all hella fine, and mostly intelligent, and 60% of them are blonde and wearing FMBs. It’s nuts. At least the coffee here is like Colorado coffee, and that’s mysteriously satisfying. I need some lovin. Either some good make out time, some serious mackin time, or just bed rockin sex. I need something, because I feel like a pear withering on the vine. I pick a pear because it is my favorite fruit. Right, so I am going to pursue this as soon as I get back. Cheers! [b]Update – 7:35a – 10/14/02 – [/b] Welp, it’s a hair after 7:30 am, and we’re heading over to my Oma’s house for some breakfast, then my dad and I are heading back to the springs. Looking to be back at 9pm at the latest. Have a good columbus day, you racist native-american hating, disease bringing european pig-dogs!

First off, I’d like to say that Everclear + OJ = quick drunk. Pretty nice … it’s like $5 for a bottle and will get me blasted 4-5 times. Now *that* is good drinkin. I am leaving for Utah sometime tomorrow after 3pm. I’ll be there until Monday (columbus day) night. So I won’t be around. Not like any of you shmucks ever talk to me anyways. Email and phone will still both work — phone is better, because I doubt I’ll have much in the way of internet access. I haven’t updated in forever. I don’t really know why … probably lack of inspiration. So the other day over at Pikes Perk, I’m in line, and this girl strikes up a conversation with me, and we chat, and I get her number. Cool beans. So I wait three days, get super busy at work, and call her on day #4 and leave a message, no return phone call. (ego deflates here). Oh well. Work is nice. I kind of rubbed some people wrong inadvertently, which is not good, and hopefully won’t catch any heat. The absolute worst is that I have to play the little political game to get anything done, because the count of people who tell me what to do just got bigger. Fortunately, I think I have people who are willing to bat for me. Hope it lasts, because I’m sure I’ll ram my foot through my mouth 10 or 12 more times before this is all through with. I realized today that I am not a networking god. Put me in front of win2k and I feel like I know what I’m doing … tell me to specify what kind of cisco router should be used for 3 T1s and a DS3, and I will look at you with a blank face. I know a *lot* about ethernet and T1s, but I have no experience with anything bigger, and it really limits my potential in many, many ways. Honestly, in retrospect, my actual network/sysadmin progress has stagnated in the past 5-6 months — once everything was working correctly, there is little need (due to no bandwidth growth ) to progress technically. Back to the books, I guess. School is going okay. I finished my math class, business is pretty close to being finished, econ is maybe 3/4s and english is a hair past 1/2 way. I’m ahead of the normal school schedule, but behind my planned schedule considerably. Did I mention that everclear is awesome? It is. wOoo, surprised I can type.

man. So much stuff not going on. I’ll start with work. Work is crazy. Man … meetings all the time, strategies, client lunches, client dinners, making plans, prepping for certain things. I’m already tired of all the squabbling that is going on as everyone henpecks for position in the new power ladder. I mean, sure, it’s fun to try and secure a place and make sure that all my bases are covered, but I’m really, really getting worn out with all the power plays. I’d much rather get the work done and then go about getting more work to do. I am suddenly dissatisfied, again, with the financial situation. I’m fucking broke, and it sucks. Why am I broke? Not due to mismanaging the finances, but to the serious lack of inflowing cash. Work is great. I won’t quit my job because it’d be damn near impossible to get another one. I guess I’ll just shut my trap and hunker down. On the personal side of things. Nothing is going on. I haven’t seen anyone, including the roommates. My general irritation of theweberhouse is evident to me, if not everyone else. The weekend has been really, really low key. The highlight? I filled my waterbed to the brim, so it’s nice and firm … and I did 6 loads of laundry. I have lots of clean clothes, and a nice, warm, comfy bed. And a PS2. Those are the things I have to look forward to every day. Isn’t that just sad? Sheesh … I’ve really slid. In every way. I’m very reticent, I’m always tired, I just want to relax when I get home … but then I get down, because hanging out at the house gets old really, really quick when there is nobody home. I read. I play on the PS2. I hang out online. I read some more. I do some work. But I never really *do* anything. it sucks. Been having some heavy duty internal thinking/issues too. Lots. Too many. It’s what invariably happens when I don’t have enough to do. I start thinking about things, my life, my job, my future. Where I’ve been, where I’m going. Always gets me down. I haven’t written in my journal in forever. lack of motivation. I think I’ll get a second job — not just for the very-handy money, but for the decrease in time I’ll have to get down on myself. [b]Update[/b] – got into a weak willed conversation with Laura today about Rudy Giuliani … thought I’d post some good links regarding him and leadership in general. [L=http://www.nydailynews.com/news/story/22559p-21397c.html]http://www.nydailynews.com/news/story/22559p-21397c.html[/L] [L=http://www.openair.org/alerts/artist/nyhitl2.html]http://www.openair.org/alerts/artist/nyhitl2.html[/L] [L=http://www.leighthompson.com/media/psychology_of_leadership.htm]http://www.leighthompson.com/media/psychology_of_leadership.htm[/L] [b]Update 9/30/02[/b] @ 5:29pm – The new Lord of the Rings – The Twin Towers trailer is out (Quicktime format) Linkified to a rand0m.org download, below: [L=http://rand0m.org/temp/LotR-TTT.mov]http://rand0m.org/temp/LotR-TTT.mov[/L]

Today there was a press release in the Gazette talking about my company being bought by another company … yahoo links follow: [L=http://biz.yahoo.com/djus/020924/1050000468_1.html]USURF Amer Signs Letter To Buy High Plains Internet[/L] [L=http://biz.yahoo.com/prnews/020924/latu067_1.html]USURF America Signs Letter of Intent to Acquire High Plains Internet[/L] Maybe I’ll get a bigger paycheck. *crosses fingers* In other news, I woke up sick.That really, really pisses me off. I *HATE* being sick … it’s right up there with how much I hate wind. So, somebody got me sick, because I do not randomly get sick. I think it was either Melissa or Tony. I’m going to blame Tony, simply because he is an easy target. Tony, why did you get me sick? *sigh* I took like 500x my daily alotment of vitamin C in hopes of my sickness not developing into full-blown illness. At least he’s going to bring home some NyQuil. mmmmmm … *miserable feelings here* I think that when I finally get of my truck, or if I keep it, or whatever, I’ll get an early 90s Jeep Cherokee. Not one of the Grand Cherokees, nor the Cherokee Wagon, but the [L=http://rand0m.org/image.php?name=93cherokee&type=jpg]Cherokee Sport or Cherokee Country[/L]. I don’t know why, but I like them. Especially with 31″ tires and a mild suspension lift. Yummy. [b]Update[/b] – It’s 12:09pm, and it is the first time I have taken an afternoon off from a day I am supposed to work in like 8 months. The reason for me not attending to my oh-so-rigorous duties? I’m sick. All out sick, I mean: headache, blurry vision, fever, sore throat, hurting mouth, sore all over. I’m in bad shape, and I am at home. *sigh*