So it’s Monday again. This particular day of the week never, ever ceases to keep coming back. It’s like a leech, it just latches on and won’t let go until you’re sucked dry. On the docket today – absolutely not much. Maybe trying to get that database to work. If I feel up to it, and I don’t decide to just fuck around all morning.

Went out last night with Tore, Emily, Matt and Darcy. Yes, *that* Matt [the Burnz!] and yes, *that* Darcy [his ex]. I don’t know about them, but I had a really good time. Matt’s a riot – I miss his comedy; it’s priceless. Darcy didn’t seem to bad … she’s a looker, and was really nice, what with the smiling and eye contact. I think Matt did better than I did when it came to finding the girl who would cause much anguish. Lucky bastard. Anywho, it was a really good time, and I’m glad we all got together – thanks guys!

I’m always worried that when I meet a new girl that I’m going to come across as creepy, or worse, gay. Why? Well, it’s as simple as my friendliness and massive fucking maw that rarely stops moving. I mean, I meet a nice girl, and instead of being confident, mysterious and enticing, I am a friendly, uber-outgoing, “hi-how-are-you-great-nice-to-meet-you-I’m-randal-did-I-say-hi?-here’s-my-card!” I’m sure that it really makes the first impression a ‘damn he’s weird’ one. Ideas on how to fix this, besides stop being me?

It’s New Year’s Eve … I’m supposed to be joyous and everything, but I’m not … it’s just another day for me – that is, until the booze comes out. I’m stoked about getting thoroughly mind-boggling smashed. Also, the left hand side is updated, with a new mp3otw and other stuff. And the moving out page is getting stale, so go there and add something!

It’s nice and chilly outside, overcast, a little gray & sunshine, the best. The only way it could be better is if there were no wind. Sometimes I wonder why weather sucks so much. I woke up this morning and noticed right away that my left ankle felt funny — only thing I can think of is that it’s now a pressure barometer, like I’ll be able feel the bad weather coming in my ankle. That bodes not so well for future arthritis endeavors. Ahh well, that’s the breaks. And the snaps. And the excruciating pain that eminates from there when I am bad.

You think that you have lots of body hair, eh? I was thinking about it last night, and there is at least twice as much hair on your head as there is on the rest of your body combined. If you’re me, that is. I thought about what it would be like to shave my legs, and then I promptly began to feel like watching Titanic. It was terrible. Luckily, though, I pulled out my oh-so-masculine “Mustangs and Fords” magazine and rejuvinated my ailing testerone levels.

Spent the morning / early afternoon here at work again, getting our stuff ready for the move to the new and improved billing system, which is supposed to be live on 01/02/02. I am amazed at how much documentation there is on the net when it comes to SQL – it sure helped a lot. That’s the gist — Don’t think I’m doing much today besides eating with Steve and his brother Dave, and maybe seeing a movie? Any fly honeys out there up for a good flick? And a New Year’s party? I feel pretty lame not having a woman to smooch when the clock strikes … that’s the breaks again, though.

It’s friday morning, and I’ve been at work for about 20 minutes. It’s great. I went to the driver’s license place this morning and got rid of my probationary license, and now have a fully 100% functional license: until January 9th, that is. That’s the happy news of the day.

The other happy news of the day is that I think I’m finally done with the ex-girlfriend issues. I made up a nice list of concessions, after writing down a bunch of my thoughts, and – to the beautiful rhythms of the Fight Club soundtrack – went through and figured everything out for myself. No, I won’t list the concessions – you could probably figure them out without my help, but they are for me and not you guys 😉 So, in the future, if I start ranting and raving about a past relationship, look at me sternly and say “remember the concessions?” – it should put me in my place right quick.

More as the day progresses 🙂

Update: Get this – ran into Tore and Janelle over at the Perk on my way back to work [from fixing a mis-flashed router]. She looks terrible with the cast thing happening, and she dropped her phone in the full-of-water sink, while on — suck. It was good to see them both 🙂

Well, after a treacherously long 10 hour journey from Salt Lake City, Utah to Colorado Springs, CO, I am finally home. Home sweet home. You have no idea how great it is to be home. Ahhh, home sweet home.

Went out and saw Lord of the Rings last night with Emily, Laura and Tore [note that awesome alphabetizing skill!]. I had a good time, cuz 1, I got to pick-up Emily … her Dad is a good guy … can’t really say why, but even though he’s at least 6’4″ and 300 pounds, he’s not scary. That’s a good thing 😉 And yea, the movie was really, really kickass. I mean, it whomped everything I’ve seen this year with no problem. Ahh, luscious Lord of the Rings. Admittedly, Sauron looks like a Power Ranger, but that’s okay, because the move just rocked. If you haven’t seen it, see it now. If you have seen it, see it again with me when I see it with Burnz when he comes down :-D.

Came to work today at 10, and jesus christ it’s nice to be back. Everybody missed me — they’re like “man, it’s tough to keep everything running when you’re not around” :: that’s job security for you 😉 Anywho, ran some cable with Jack, got my finger slashed pretty good by his pocket knife, and just all in all am having a good day.

Good news on the ticket front – I’ll post about that tomorrow once I glean more info. It’s so good to be back.

Update: Well, for all you happy folks out there in internet land, I have a special treat for you! Not only is there still the Moving Out Page but there is now an Archives Page! It is handily located up in the See & Do section — check it out 🙂

8:52am and we’re leaving Utah as soon as I post. I hope to be back in the springs around 7 — I know all you monkeys out there are just frothing at the bit to get your alottment of glorious me: all you need now is a little patience 😉

On another note, over there on the left hand side a the top there is the navigation section. You’ll note that there is now a Moving Out link — follow it for mysterious prize #2! No, seriously, it’s a page I whipped up so that you, yes, you could give me some reasoning on moving out – both good and bad. Take a peek, it’s good. And the code behind it is terrible, but it works fine!

Once I hit northern colorado, I’ll start calling you peepz to see what’s going on – Tore, you still down for LotR? I’ll be back soon!

Today was a good day, for a couple reasons. Primarily, I saw sunlight – at least 10 minutes of pure, unadulterated sunlight. It was glorious. I saw my brother, which was nice. Spoke to a couple people in the springs [via cell], and that was nice too. Yup, that was about it.

Depending on how things go in ~ 2 1/2 weeks, I’ll be selling my truck. Because of this, anybody who wants to go on a ride in the emobiment of my teen-age years needs to make sure they do so prior to me losing my license. I know you all don’t care that much, but I do. [sniffle sniffle] … kind of an end of an era, you know? Ahh well, like I said in the last post – approaching big bad 20, and I have shit to do.

I went Christmas shopping with family today. While that in itself is as close to hell as one can get, that’s not the important part. The important part is that Utah is full of fine ass bitches. Seriously, everywhere I turn, there’s another firm-bodied, hottt girl. At the store. On the street. In front of me, walking, bagging my sister’s purchases, helping little kids cross the street — they’re everywhere. And every single fucking one of them is married. Not kidding. Seriously, here in Utah, if you’re 19 and female, you are married. It made me sort of ill, realizing that every girl I looked at was another guy’s woman. Fucking whack. And the worst part is this – at any time, 3 out of 5 girls are wearing fuck-me boots. Yes, those calf-high, form-fitting black leather boots that make me want to perform vigorous horizontal activity with the wearer. The whole woman scene here is truly terrifying. I want to be back where the girls are not married at 19, where they are still young, single and don’t have 3 kids.

Update: Went to church today. That was crap. Except for the oh-so-plentiful hot married chicks in fuck-me boots. You want to woo me? Well, if you’re female, you’re mostly done already. But if you wear fuck-me boots, I’m sold.

Sometimes you just think yourself into a stupor. Anybody ever done that? I do it on occasion – It usually gets me really down. Being here in Utah away from comfortable-land isn’t helping::

yea, so it’s fucking 2am and I’m still awake. This place is giving me the fucking shakes — my nerves are on fire every second that I’m awake. My whole trip so far has been on-edge, and extremely not-so-fun. Today was by far the best day, because I saw my immediate family [mom, dad & sis], and my grandparents, and that’s it. No one else. However, the grandparents are a very, very sad story.

My sister got one of her molars pulled. Apparently it was in really bad shape … she was up all night with pain, and went to the dentist today, and they advised to pull it, so they did. She’s miserable. And she whines a lot. Even before the tooth incident, all she did was bitch about how the family treats her like a little kid … my reaction was “only because you allow it.” … it’s very true … I may *be* a little kid [well, not really], but nobody fucks around with me because I’m not going to take their shit … back on track, my sister is a good girl, but she complains a lot about everything. Annoying.

Sitting around talking to Burnz again tonight … pretty sombering. We’re both nearing 20, and we have both realized that we have gone nowhere, and done nothing. We even got into this bullshit little fight about who sucks more … me mentioning the no-license thing, him mentioning his poor webmastering skills … it all kind of shook itself out: we suck, we know it, and to be quite fucking honest, there’s not much we can do about it right now. Sad, depressing, all that other shit.

Update: On another extremely depressing front, reliable word has it that my previous girlfriend thought our whole relationship was, and I quote, “a mistake.” How’s that for a confidence booster, eh?

Update (another one!): Today has been not much better than any other day. I spent most of it stonewalling and trying to keep people’s bullshit out of my face. Went and saw some mormon movie, and it was shit. “other side of heaven” it was called. thought about theatre hopping, but 1) they have tons of people working there, like 1-1 patron/employee ratio and 2) I was in the middle of the fucking row. That was today, for the most part.

I finished both of my books – William Gibson’s Neuromancer and the same’s Burning Chrome – both were very good. I’m going to try and get Fellowship of the Ring done before Christmas. Oh, I hear it’s blizzarding in Co.Springs – it’d be pretty nice to have that here; Utah weather is this light-gray, all the time. There is no sun, there is no snow, just this terrible, heat-sapping light-gray. It’s bad.

So I thought I’d put something up just to do it. I have a hair of free time right now [well, all morning] and my website and my fans deserve all the love and attention that I can douse them with.

So far, Utah is everything I thought it would be — dreary, terrible weather, unbelievably intolerable family, and the kicker, a bed that is a futon! Yesterday was pretty hellish … went over to the grandparents’ house, and it was really sad. It made my insides ache to be over there: it just reaks of impending death :-/ Ditched out of there, and went shopping with my sister. I have very little to say about that besides “there are lots of hot girls here in UT, and they are all married by age 20.” The shopping was blah. Didn’t go see LotR, because every theatre in town was sold out :: I guess ritualistic satan worshipping really rakes in the bucks here.

Today, I have done nothing besides sitting here with my laptop on this nice futon and surfing / doing some light work. Fixed a couple small non-rand0m.org website issues, and spoke to Jack. Heading out to celebrate my dad getting a job [that’s another news post] at Red Lobster … I hear that everyone is out from college — which means nothing to me because I’m here in UT. But yea, apparently Laura is headed into town, Emily was out yesterday, Sammi is on her way as well [I think]. That’s the gist. And, in other news, The Burnz continues to be the good brother when it comes to mind-bending, heart-impaling situations — especially when it cames to Paco, and his gang of angry felonious-walmart-box-stackers.

So I’m here in Utah already. Woke up around 4am and was out of the springs by five — which means I was here at 3. I got a phone call from steve, which kicks ass — I guess that if you call my phone while I’m here in UT, I’ll still get it. That’s pretty damn cool. Anywho, figured out some shipping issues with my laptop battery and got a dial-up account for here in UT [via UUNet, w0o!]. And that’s all so far.

The drive consisted of me listening to some CDs with my big headphones on while being unable to hear anything else. Oh, and sleep. Lots of sleep. Unfortunately, though, I’ve been here less than 2 hours and I’ve already been hit with the “so, I hear you’re losing your license” thing twice. My mother’s inability to keep private shit private is one of the top 3 reasons I really, really didn’t want to come — the other two are 1) family and 2) I’m missing shit back home. I know, I know, I should love my family and value the time I spend with them and blah blah blah. You’re right. It’s difficult to do, though; my family is very difficult to spend time with. Oop, family is back and they want the phone. I’ll update with more of the tragedy later tonight.

Update: Tonight was really low-key … I did absolutely nothing besides snooze, read and surf the web. I really really really hope that the rest of the trip is like this. Oh, on another note … I got a call from this particular hotty in co.springs, and she told me that she shaved her legs. So HA, I win!