Another example of how mindless I am: rand0m: so yea rand0m: ditched speech rand0m: and got out of poli.sci hella early. rand0m: that was good. rand0m: rest of the day was pretty blah. and why am I typing this here? rand0m: should be in the admin section of the site. LOL. rand0m: my, self-dialog is fun. Doesn’t that just inspire you? I know that whenever I drone on and on mindlessly, and then comment on them to myself, I feel like I am affirming my sanity. On another note, Toshiba has a laptop the rocks the fucking house. Tim, one of the non-punk-ass geekpad guys, pointed it out to me … it’s quite a bit cheaper than the Dells I’ve been looking at, and is at least comparable. On a different note, I am having some problems with the woman thing. The amount of random hookups has increased exponentially sinced I moved in here, but sadly, the number of actual good relationships has not. Well, I mean, the guys here rock, and I feel like I’m on some good wavelengths with the housemates [you guys rock the fucking house!], everything that has to do with “real” stuff just isn’t there. And it’s starting to suck. Oh well, guess I’d better go drown these feelings of sorrow in sex, alcohol and rock and roll. Disclaimer time: for the record, Emily is not a bitch. Or cold and heartless. Or even a bad person. In fact, she really rocks. So when I make apparently disparaging remarks, I am actually just lying through my teeth in an attempt to vent my own pitiful, miserable frustration. Capice-a-corn? Having some issues with that logo contest from forever ago. Turns out that Dilun Ho ganked Steve Chapin’s mountain and submitted it as his own. Hashing out the issues here, and have a pretty suh-weet one in place. Oh, and I highly recommend Bicardi Silver to anyone who is interested in a scrumptious, citrus-y malt liquor. Goes down easy, and only like 10 proof, too! Mas Manananana~!

So I hadn’t drank anything for a whole week until last night. I kind of took a “won’t drink until Saturday” approach to avoid being classified as an alcoholic. Anyhow, so yea, I got really, really, really drunk last night and watched some movie. Oh right, Jay & Silent Bob Strike Back. Then we got more drunk. And then we decided to go to some CC parties, so we did. Attended one, and it was really hoppin, then went over and picked up Emily (not quite sure how I feel about that, what with getting shot down), and went to another party, but then she got tired / not drunk / whatever and left. Tony and I went to Denny’s and met up with Matt and Paul, then went home and passed out. Quite a good night. Kinda tired today, though. Got an unexpected phone call on Friday night from this girl at school named April. She rang me up and came over, showed her the place, blah blah blah. Then wewent over to her place, and then to her friends place, where we played poker and these three dudes smoked a *HUGE* blunt. Cigar size, fucking monstrous. Anyhow, Friday night was really fun as well. Saw my dad the next morning, cuz he came down from Denver and we went and had breakfast together. I have to say it again — my Dad fucking rocks. Other misc news … there’s a pretty good chance that I’ll be buying another laptop; this one is having some whack power issues, and it’s just getting slow. Hopefully work will chip in a little and help me out. Also, got a new cell phone number — all you peepz out there can hit me up at 719.287.4741. The old number is still active, but is just a forward to the new one. Other than that, I think I’m gonna buy a receiver and a futon cover today. That’s about it 🙂 [b]Update[/b] – 11:15p – 03/10/02 :: Do any of you guys have any opinions on what kind of laptop I should go after? I’m thinking a Dell Inspiron, cuz they have that 1600×1200 screen. [orgasm here]. Also, I got a futon cover, gotta wash it though. Oh yea, ideas on where to get a decent mid range reciever? I’m thinking pawn shops.

Okay, so I’m sitting around and thinking about some stuff, and I figure out that not only have not received a haircut or replaced my trucks headlight or even bought the futon cover, but I realized that people and relationships change — and also tell you a lot about that person. I’m just going to kind of run through these badboys… Okay, the first group of people are obviously the dudes at thegeekpad. I mean, those are all pretty alright guys, except for when you happen to step on their toes a bit. Now, everyone expects some discomfort, but come on. First they get all pissy at my “no I won’t moderate your news/comments to protect illegal activity” thing, and then they get all mad as hell when one of them gets fucked because of their admitted blinding stupidity. I thought that Craig, for instance, was a pretty good guy. I enjoyed his company and stuff, but alas, that’s no more. Same goes for Ray. Kinda the same goes for Kurt, but Kurt’s a lot more easy going than the previous 2. And that right there kind of highlights shit. I mean, why hasn’t Pat shown up and spewed shit? It could have something to do with the fact that it’s rand0m.org, or it could be that he doesn’t need to say anything. Same goes for Tim — where the hell is he? Why does it seem like the only people actively bitching are the lackeys of the house? Very odd how such nice, enjoyable people can turn into real assholes. Kinda makes you think, huh? Okay, I’m going to avoid the next changing person, because the whole “her and I” thing has been beat to death. Let it be known that she is now an Ice Queen at least 64% of the time. At least she thanked me for the birthday card and seemed pleased to speak to me today. w3rd. Okay, next is Steve, Tore and Matt. Now, these three guys are radically different. I mean, Tore is a hippy at a liberal arts college, and Matt throws boxes at Wally-World and Steve is a computer dude. The relationships I have with them are pretty similar though; although removed distance-wise, it seems like there is a pretty close connection. Not as much with Tore, because we don’t speak / type a lot, but it’s still there cuz of the history. It’s kinda weird how the relationships go from “yea, randal’s a good guy” to “randal’s a philandering ass” to “randal has at least gotten some tang”. I know I have changed, and I know both of them have changed, but I think of all of them the same way — Tore and Steve as the immovable, warm & fuzzy, bend-over-backwards always there type, and Matt as the never-will-betray-you, stunningly blunt yet enjoyable listener type. Oddly enough, those two people have held the position in my life, and our relationships haven’t changed that much: matured, but not changed much. I like them. I was gonna put Laura in here (and Emily, for that matter), but I have to go to class soon. I’ll probably update and put her in, but the gist is that she’s changed a bunch, and I still enjoy her company, but her idealogy seems to be a huge stumbling block in our friendship. I’m pretty sure that’s my problem, though, because I’m “male” and “closed-minded”. LOL. Laura and I were pretty good friends in highschool, and I’d like to think we’re pretty good friends now. Problem is, though, that both of us have changed quite a bit since highschool. Well, I’d like to think that I’m not the same guy, but that’s probably not true. So, in effect, Laura (not me) has changed since then. She is a lot more vocal and active about her opinions now than ever before, and simply because hers don’t coincide with mine, any sort of conversation we have (which invariably ends up in politics) quickly goes to shit. I think she cares a lot more about people and things that are not herself than I do … it might just be our train full of baggage, or it could just be different views, but there’s some relationship tension … I don’t know if it’ll ever work itself out, but in the meantime, it’s nice to know that I can, at any given time, say that I have a friend with bright pink hair. Not going to say anything about Emily, cuz there’s not much left. hrmph. >-| So yea, people change. It’s pretty crazy to see how quickly (less than a day!) and wildly a person’s view will swing to the extreme, and consequently how quickly they’ll treat you like shit. Never seems to work that way to the good side of things. Wouldn’t it be super awesome if an intelligent, attractive, rand0m-luvin 19 year old woman became a super-good-friend in less than 4 hours? That would rock the house.

Not only has my life continued on without this interweb thing for a whole month, it has prospered in many ways. It has also really, really fucking sucked. My life has been great recently. I mean, it’s really, really great. I moved! I now live right downtown, a mere 6 or 7 blocks from work and school. I don’t drive very much at all anymore, even though I still have my license — thanks to a very nice District Attorney, I got off really light — in fact, driving kind of makes me feel funny 😉 The house that I live in is filled with a couple guys who are all really great. Matt, Ben & Shawn all rock … we don’t fight, we don’t sit around and bitch, nobody is an asshole. From what I can see, it’s waaay better than any of the similar ‘house-full-of-guys’ situations that I see around. Work has also exploded … tons and tons of new business makes for not much free time at work anymore; that’s quite alright, though, because I love what I do. My grandmother died on Saturday the 16th. I flew to Utah, saw the funeral, saw the whole family, the whole shebang. It really wasn’t that bad. No disrespect to my grandmother, but it was actually a pretty good time — got to see some family that I haven’t seen in a long time, and just generally got to enjoy everyone’s company: even my parents’. That’s a funky thing … I move out, and all of a sudden, my parents like me. They want to spend time with me. They want to make sure I’m doing okay. They want me to take everything they have to ensure my own success. It’s quite the change from how it’s been for the past … 19 years. It’s nice, though. Just about everything rocks — school is great, work is great, home is great, life is great. There are some things that aren’t so great, though. For instance, one of the headlights on my truck went out. And … umm … I still owe Tony some $ for the 46″ Sony TV that I bought from him [which is in the living room at the house], and he’s pretty anal when it comes to money — more so than even me 😉 Other things that suck … umm … I got shot down by a lady-friend when I tried to woo her. That wasn’t very much fun. On the other hand, things are going well with a school-female-friend [even though there’s no real potential], so I guess that balances out. I can’t complain about money, because I have enough. Oh wait, I need a cover for my futon. That’s a sucky thing. Oh, and a torch lamp, I don’t have one of those … but I can take care of those two things so they are no longer sucky. I can’t really complain about much else, because everything is going so well. On the website side of things, yes, it’s back. Very few of the links work right now, because all the pages have to be retooled to fit the new rand0m’s Content Management System [rCMS] function libraries. rCMS not only makes things waaay easier from a coding standpoint, but also allows a lot more flexibility — for example, you’ll be able to make your own color scheme for the site! The rest of the sidebar content here will be up in the next few days, and will also be completely arrangeable / selectable according to your user preferences [if you opt to create an account (not available yet)]. So that’s the whole deal. The site is back, as is the meaningless, ever-repeating crap that is posted here on a continuous basis. Enjoy 🙂

Wow, I had a pretty busy weekend. Being a definite departure from the norm, I am glad that it didn’t suck. The quick gist … I didn’t do much on Saturday … in fact, I don’t really remember satur-Day, I remember saturnight [yuk yuk], cuz a bunch of us went out and saw Monty Python & The Holy Grail at Tinseltown’s midnight movie. It rocked – Steve, Nick & Eric came down from Denver to see it, and Tony and Craig and Jared made appearances too — it was a good time 😀 After that, the denver guys and I went up to steve’s place … got to sleep around 5am, woke up a little after 10:30, and started to LAN. My box is a peice of shit, and didn’t like being in Denver. That seems to be the general consensus – take my box out of co.springs, and it stops working. Period. A format / reload there didn’t fix it, so I said fuck it. Anyhow, a lot of people were there, and everyone had a good time – I’m glad I went :-). I left Steve’s place around … what, 9:30? and went to Boulder to see Laura. Showed up there and met a handful of her friends [props to Scott, Drew, Claire, Kirk & Kevin if they ever read it!] — I’m sure she thought me uncomfortable around her people, but I wasn’t really: they’re all nice, I’m nice, we got along pretty well. Got completely fucked up in Laura’s dorm room with her and a couple other people. I don’t remember falling asleep, really, just waking up. After that, went back to Steve’s, fucked around for a while, then came back to the springs for class and whatnot. Got my computer running last night, but it’s not up-to-snuff yet, still pretty broken — and I lost about 70% of my mp3s … ahh well. And that was my weekend. No sex, no rioting, not even any gaming — just good times with good people. [b]Update[/b]: Okay, I got this in my e-mail the other day — it’s a real uplifter 🙂 [i]About the site don t remember how I found it, but I think it was through a random (ha ha) search on google about a couple of weeks ago. It really do like the site though, and hit it at least twice daily in hopes that there s something new to read. It has inspired me to get off my ass and finally code that damn website for my city s AYSO soccer region … After I finish that one, I m gonna make my own website similar to yours, I hope, what with the daily log and all. Thanks for the inspiration [/i]

Went out and saw Monty Python & The Holy Grail – it was simply brilliant [still]. Steve, his roommate Nick and friend Eric came down from Denver to catch the flick, which is really neat — I followed them back up here to Denver, where I’m staying the night so we can LAN all day Sunday … then, Sunday night, I’m supposed to head to Boulder to party with Laura, and then I don’t know what on Monday — I have class at 5:20pm, so I have to get back in town with some sort of punctuality … other than that, not much interesting stuff has been happening. I’ll put up some webcam pics from the party in the morning [around 10?] … and tell all of you about the no-doubt-to-be crazy partying in Boulder tonight. 😀

Update: Okay, for some reason, my computer is being a complete fucking retard. I have absolutely no idea what is wrong with it, but it sucks. The worst part is that I have over 15GB of files I’d like to hang on to … so I can’t just format/reinstall here at the LAN. This blows. I hope to get really, really, really drunk. Please god.

oof. so tired. not “depressed and life sucks” tired, but “happy productive wore out” tired. Although things aren’t even close to the best possible conditions, what with life spinning wildly under who knows’ control, I feel like I am really back. No longer fishtailing madly around the unexpected curves — not more “control” though … things are just better. I think I am now a wiser, better me. But I am me.

I have decided that my current schedule is a bad one. I go to sleep way too late, wake up late, and then feel all whack because there’s not much to do from ~7pm till 1am on weekdays. I have put on a lot of weight [:-( :-(] – I am thinking I just might start waking up at 6 am to go work out, go to work, do school, and then be asleep by 10pm. That sounds so adult though … agreed, I don’t want to be old, but their schedule, offendingly enough to my young sensibilities, makes things seem a lot more accomplish-able.

Update: Wow, I slept a lot last night. Quite the good change from only a couple hours of good sleep a night 😉 Had a whack ass dream that involved the movies, me, 2 guys and a showdown fight in the bathroom … I won … but I don’t really remember much about it. Umm … There are more logos put in under the Logo Contest — I’ll tell you, there are some talented people out there on the net.

Plans for tonight — Monty Python and the Holy Grail is playing at Tinseltown as the midnight movie; I am fully intending on going, so if you’d like to come too, hit up my cell 🙂

yummm, Cold pizza in the morning … scrumptious.

Update: I bought books this morning. Total Damage: $327.68 And three of the four purchased books were used. I feel violated. :-/.

Update: There are more logos in the Logo Contest check them out! On an aside, a little voting thing for those would be pretty cool. [looks into this]

Okay, the Logo Contest now has it’s own page – hopefully I’ll get a whole slew of submissions so that I won’t get “wow, your cards look cheap” anymore. Again, it’s $50, so make one and send it in 🙂

In other news, I had a review thing-a-ding this morning, and it went really well. The company officers love me and are striving to make sure that I stay around. I’m stoked. Not only did I get to voice my opinion and whatnot, I got more stock! wOo! Also, get this – a while ago, we ditched the leases on a couple servers because we were paying waaay too much for them; it turns out that on one of the servers, the leasing company has no record of the server. There’s a damn fine chance that we’ll get another server back for a whopping $1.00! That’ll be handy as hell. Also! Tony is working at Emergent now for sure. That’s pretty cool – being unemployed sucks cock. [jabs steve with finger]

Update: Thought I’d give an update on school … Economics looks to be an easy class, which is good 🙂 … Poli.Sci is taught by a staunch leftwinger who, oddly enough, spouts libertarian idealogy continuously – that’ll be great fun – and my Speech class is taught by this dude who’s really dramatic. That’ll be a fun class, especially with all the theatre chicks who are in there 😛 I’ll have some more juice after my Business class tonight.