Thought I’d post because I haven’t done it in a while, and I’m antsy to type.

Now that I am definitely not enrolled for the fall 2001 semester @ uccs, I have decided to get my CCNA and some parts of my MCSE by the end of December. So now I have a goal =] I had a phone interview with Gateway, they are very interested. Scheduled a real interview for Tuesday @ 8:30am up there; I am confident they will find me indespensable. Also, the definite opportunity @ another company called Paradigm Infomedia [pdmi]. And that is that.

Interesting conversation:

realbighead: the female side felt kinda number-2-ish
realbighead: what with all their ‘get drunk, hook up, go home’
rand0m: yea, I was like ‘holy shit, that happens!?’

Interesting link: Need a job?

Oh yea, I am not taking Voicestream; it would go on file that I worked there, and that’s not what I want. Plus, it’s a long drive, and there are other things to do [like fix truck]. Also, check out the HPI Hi Tech Hate Hack. They got us pretty good due to the owners extreme incompetence. Lots of work ahead for me. [sigh]

if I had some booze tonight. See, i don’t work tomorrow, so there is absolutely nothing stopping me from getting completely smashed tonight [besides the lack of inebriating liquids]. I have to mow the lawn, and that’s it. I’ll spend the rest of the evening doing nothing but sitting on my ass. I’ll drink what little bacardi I have left and fool myself into thinking I’m having a good time. Tomorrow, I’ll do the same all day, but without the bacardi part. woo.

I got paid today. it’s enough. not anywhere near as much as I want, or even close to the amount that I could put to good use, but enough. grr. I despise.

Update: here is an amazingly horrendous juicy tidbit that I just got in the mail.

Dear Randal:

Sincerely,
Randall E. Kouba,
Director

I feel warm inside. don’t you?

Update #2: Okay, so the whole thing has hit me now, and I am realizing that this is very, very bad. My plans are fucked. Going to probably spend this 4th of july determining what I am going to do for the next year. ()@*!@!*%^!^#%@%!@^!#^(*

And here we have a picture of me, surrounded by red? I can see everyone out there in internet land saying “why?” And, as always, I shall come through with an answer. This is a scan of my current driver’s license — a red license. That means that it has certain restrictions about how often I can aimlessly drive around [not very often].

Today was a rather boring day. Didn’t do much at all. Well, not true. I did quite a few things, but nothing of much importance. The best part, imo, was sitting at the park, where I observed and thought some fascinating things, of which I will copy out of my e-journal and post later tonight. I also entertained an e-mail from Gateway about a possible employment opportunity, and another from pdmi.net, another local ISP who wants me. That is heart warming. I plan to thoroughly waste another night away, much like I did last night. [sigh]

I will not be posting what I wrote in my journal. sorry. however, I have found out something interesting, completely by chance. I don’t know how true it is, but boredome is the physical manifestation of one’s lack of motivation. I have lots of shit to do, but am not motivated to do it. And I am very bored, despite the large amounts of things I have to do. odd that, eh?

That’s the line that my grandfather says whenever he sees anyone. I don’t know why I thought that just now, but I did, so it is the title of this post. To the right, we see the epitome of how great things can be. Just look at that — the complete and utter lack of caring about anything except a good brew and a good show. ahhh, that’s the life.

In other news, life still sucks for a little bit. Went to a driving class today, and it sucked. Then, I did nothing tonight. On a saturday night — that hasn’t happened in a long time. Tomorrow I will pull all the hoo-haa off my truck in an attempt to make it not stick out at all … sad, but true.

Don’t have my license back until monday — and either I need a ride up there at 7:30 am, or I’ll drive up there. If I get a ride, then I’ll probably have to come back to my house when done so I can get my truck: errands to run on monday [voicestream and a thing for work].

It is July 1st. You know what that means? Well, three things. The fourth is just 3 days away. My birthday is just 15 days away, and, most importantly, I have to manually move the date forward one day on my watch, off of 31, because June is a panty-waist and has only 30 days. ‘night.

Alright, my parents are gone. Like, they are *gone*. For two months. AFAIK, they have no plans of coming back anytime sooner. I am pleased with that, although the “having to water” part sucks. I don’t like watering, or mowing the lawn for that matter. Small prices, though.

I need a ride to my class tomorrow morning; it starts at 9am. Drop me an e-mail or call me. Or I’ll have to drive there [bad bad bad idea]. If anyone wants to come over and have a gathering *cough*, that’s cool, but someone has to give me a ride. That too would be a small price to pay =)

Saw Lauren Blomgren today; first time in a *long* time. She was with her dad. I was afraid of him; he is quite a bit bigger than janelle’s dad [who is very intimidating] and at least 10,000 times meaner. Anywho, i saw them, don’t think they saw me; if they did, they sure didn’t react. Not even a sneer, which is what I expected. heh. Her tits are better, but she looks like lauren, and [this is the clincher right here] she still is lauren. wanted to say hi, but didn’t. odd how she means so little, despite that I was all wrapped up about her for months. weird.

Link of the day: Gay-O-Meter :: I got a 12%

well, it’s not so bad. Got an insurance policy for an ungodly high amount of money and it’s ths cheapest I could find — signing up for it in the morning. then i attend a crappy *6* hour driving class [no actual driving] class on saturday [$50] then pay the dmv $40 for my license re-instatement on monday. Then I get a probationary license that’s good through december. If I get a ticket for any points in between monday and then, I am moving. Simple as that. Also, my driving is restricted to home, downtown, voicestream, gateway and uccs … I will find out if I can stay downtown until like 9 or 10 pm and then go home from there; that would be okay. hope someone is enjoying their concert! ‘night

update: i am really … depressed? down? no, those aren’t right, just *sad* about this. it will completely kill anything resembling a social life. oh well, 80+ hour weeks gotta be good for me.

i don’t know where i’m going, but it’s probably not in colorado for long.

the short of it — lost my license yesterday due to being over the point limit … have to take a 2 hour class and show some insurance and i’ll have a probationary till end of december. found out i’m not, and never have been, a declared driver on my parents insurance. so i have to sign up for insurance on my own. that’s gonna cost at least $300 up front, and could take up to 3 weeks. in the meantime, i’ll quit my job, not pay bills etc.

on another note, i get to enjoy my parents shuttling me around for the rest of the week.

… felt like you don’t know where you’re going? I was reading the title of this book; it said “If you don’t know where you’re going, you’ll probably end up somewhere else.” How true. I feel like I am losing direction. Sure I have long range goals, but nothing even short to mid-term. I really have no plan either. This definitely needs to change: I think I’ll write down some goals and some ways to reach those goals and read them every day. twice.

Had a very relaxing phone conversation tonight as I laid on the cement sidewalk. The night air was cool and refreshing, and the stars were twinkling, the moon glowing lightly. It’s not every day that I get to enjoy such things; a good step out of the ordinary.

Think you’re getting a nice fat juicy refund this summer from Good Ol’ GW ? HAHAHAHAHA THINK AGAIN! Dependents get zero refundage. Grrrr. No, not just Grrrr, more like G*(@*#!@#$ #*@( (*^!@(!##!^$)(

Had a good, relaxing day today. Found out my parents are not leaving the 28th, but the 29th – Friday. Oh, I saw The Fast and the Furious: good movie, ended very abruptly though. Go see it =)

Went out and had a night on the town … it was good … out till about 3:00 am, home and asleep at 3:30am. Affirmed that Dean is The Man and got some digits …

The guy from Unisys came and fixed my laptop — I’m really glad that it works correctly now. I may have a bad stick of ram, though; I’m upgrading to 256 anyway, so it’s not a huge deal.

It never fails that when I’m showering and I’m scrubbing my face with apricot scrub [de-skinner stuff? what’s that shiz called?] and it invariably gets in my eyes. That stuff stings like hell. I do not recommend following rand0m’s lead on this one.

Update: One of the most addictive internet games I’ve ever seen — www.vectorinternet.co.uk/games/kick-ups.html — thanks Pat McDavid!

update #2: Screenshot of my 101 high score.