I don’t know why it struck me just now that I should post, but here I am, posting at just after midnight with god knows what on my mind. Life in general is pretty good. MikeLee tells me that my website is a waste of the internet, and is totally surprised to hear that I still get hundreds of hits a day. Honestly, it surprises the hell of out me too. Shit, I haven’t posted in nearly 3 weeks, yet you ravens are still here, picking at the corpse of rand0m.org. I digress. Yes, life is good, minus the total lack of sleep and over abundance of work. I think Betsy (Pikes Perk) likes me, but honestly, I can’t tell through the haze of confusion that follows me everywhere I go. I haven’t played a good night of pool in forever, and the closest thing to “fun” I had was on the opening night of the store when I got totally sloshed and almost got into a fight backing up Mike. Oh yea, and I don’t sleep. I am tired. That is the byline of my life. All I do is work. From 9am until midnight+ every day. I can feel my soul slowly creeping out of my body, wishing me a fond goodbye as it wisps away into the realm of “not burdened by a shuffling husk of a man, totally beaten down by his unnerving ability to not sleep”. It really isn’t *that* bad, but it’s bad. I get 6 hours a night. Maybe. I’m aiming for 7 tonight. Please Jesus, give me 7. I come home from the store and it’s like midnight+ and I walk around the house. I don’t know why. I just pace. For like 15 minutes. Then I try to calm down with some tea and my book … but my book is at the store. Or it’s at HPI. Fuck. I guess I’ll just post here and then pace and then go to sleep. HPI. HPI is good. We hashed some things out. It’s good. Everything is moving forward — wireless, CoLos, the whole shebang. It’s neat. The Store. The Store opened up on Friday of last week. It was a nice, big hurrah of an opening and we had a few truckloads of people come through the store … although that is fine and dandy, the word is still not out. We have not made much money in our first week of business. Yes, we know that we’re not going to be millionaires our first month, but goddammit I was really hoping it would just go nuts on us. Like, just sit at the desk and take people’s money all day. Thousands of dollars a day like, you know? That is far off. Very far off. We are spamming the city with flyers trying to get people to come. But there are complications, as always. I am having a panic attack right now. Andrew and Baker came in tonight (‘nother story) to hang the EverLAN foam sign thing. It’s neat. Some dude came in while they were here and wanted to play Counter-Strike v1.6. We don’t have 1.6 because of Steam, Valve’s new “Content Distribution / Ability to take away cybercafes’ ability to make money” system. He left. But not before talking to Baker for like 20 minutes. What for? I do not know. Baker gave me shit about not using CS 1.6. I almost told him to fuck off, but decided that the more diplomatic “well, we’ll have to look into that” is a better approach. So tonight I looked into the whole Steam Licensing thing, and now I’m having a total panic attack. We’re not going to make money, ever. Big corporations like Valve and Blizzard and id are going to license us to death. Or sue the shit out of us. The money isn’t coming in. The word isn’t out. Everything is just not what I thought it would be and I’m totally freaking out. I guess that’s why I’m posting …. this is the most severe emotional hangup I’ve had (time for). But it’s purely emotional, so I can get over this. I just need some sleep. In other news, I finished off Signs By Tomorrow’s network / phone system on Sunday. It’s like sex, if sex came in the form of cat5e, jacks and punch blocks. I’m glad it doesn’t. Janelle is in Rome, Italy doing her semester abroad. I say “her semester abroad” because it seems like every intelligent, going somewhere girl that I really like out there does “their semester abroad”. Sammy did. Lilly did. Betsy did. Amy did. Janelle is. See!? It’s a trend! Anyways, her first weekend in Italy, Janelle got to experience a country-wide power outage. Don’t worry, it was only like 22 million people (smaller than our outage), because Italy is small. huzzah. This website will soon be moving to login-based system, where you will be required to have a valid username and password before being allowed to view any content. Yes, you’ll be able to signup on the web. No, it will not cost anything (laugh). Cheers!