I am bored. It’s a combonation of not really being interested in a lot of stuff, and having a routine that is a little too engrained, and the fact that there is little option to break the routine. I am not interested in a lot of things. Maybe it’s because I cannot afford them. Maybe it’s because I am a lazy bum. Maybe it’s because I have a lack of bubble-breaking motivation. I don’t know. I have an engrained routine that is getting tired. There are little discrepancies in my day to day schedule, but generally, it is the same thing all day, every day. Except that I throw parties / drink / lots of people occasionally. Those are nice. But just about everything else is same-o, same-o … not enough variety. Blah blah blah. blah blah blah blah blah. Skip the above, hit the comment button. I know you will. blah blah blah blah blah. Hell, skip the below too, and just hit the comment button. Blah blah blah blah blah. There are few options to snap out of this little sucky state. Please note that I am not depressed or down, just stuck. I am poor. Oh so very poor. College + books + car + rent + insurance + everything else makes for a non-rich me. Sure, enough to get by, but not enough to embark upon interesting things. For example, going to DefCon. A week in Vegas. $65 for the entry fee, plus gas, food, entertainment, etc. It could *easily* cost $250. I don’t have $250 to blow. Because of this serious lack of cash, the number of opportunities that I can grab hold of diminishes quickly. So, it looks like money is the root of all the problems. Well, there’s a slight problem with that, too. I make enough to get by. But what I receive in a non-financial way is worth a lot more — extreme flexibility & knowledge. I can go to school at any time. I can make my schedule change in a heartbeat, and it’s no problem. I also have technology-industry opportunities that few 20 year olds have. But it’s just not enough money. That’s my latest rant. That’s about it … I don’t have much else to say. Another thing … I’m tired of putting my neck out there all the time, be it work, people, girls, whatever, to try and get something started and then continuously getting rebuffed. It sucks. It hurts. It’s a huge demotivator towards doing it again. It’s tiring.