So here I sit, at 11:26pm on a wednesday night, contemplating everything. The last post has 70+ comments. The only reason I can come up for this is that everyone rags on everyone, and no one is ever wrong, and bicker and bitch and blah blah blah. You know what the worst part is? When confronted with each other in real life, that’s how it is. There is little camaraderie and less harmony; how the fuck do people keep up any kind of relationship in this atmosphere? They don’t. It’s all just bullshit, and it sucks.
Everyone is going away. Hit me tonight, finally, that within 10 days, there will be exactly four people in the springs who I would venture to call ‘friend.’ Of those four, most aren’t even really friends; just people I think I know. Let me tell you, it’s going to suck. I am thinking that I will either throw myself at my job[s] or take up reading. or running. or some goddamn thing to keep my mind off of the deficit of interesting, mature and intelligent people my age. that will only be after a few weeks of zero social interaction.
I threw a party last night. i don’t remember anything besides drinking town two tall glasses of rum and talking to laura’s friends on aim. I hope everyone had a good time. oh yea … uh, where’s the rum? wouldn’t mind if it’s gone, just would like to know if I should look around for the bottle before the ‘rents come home. Gateway sucks. Job @ HPI is good but doesn’t pay. Truck … dunno, but it’s being sold soon. The lawn is not healthy anymore :: parents won’t be too happy. i have no paper plates, either. i am tired.
‘All the things that I used to know have gone out the window’ … apt.
***UPDATE***: … it is NOT ‘most aren’t even really friends’ — it is ‘none are even really friends’ … and paper towels work for in leiu of paper plates in a pinch. what a life saver.